April 15th is going to be the best night ever♥ I get to see Brokencyde in Dallas with my bestfriend. I'm going to jump up on the stage(:

1.Nobody in life gets exactly what they thought they were going to get, but if you work really hard and you're kind, amazing things will happen.

2. Act like a fish and you'll never get caught; They get caught once they open their mouth.

3. Truth is like a crystal vase, once it's shattered, it's broken forever.

4. I was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mending whole was good as new. What is broken is broken - and I'd rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places as long as I lived.

5. I could write novels about pain. Not the kind of pain you get when you break you're arm, but the kind that makes your broken heart go into your throat, so it takes all of your energy and concentration to breathe. The kind of pain that makes you want to scream and sob at the same time. The kind of pain that makes you want to hurt everyone around you because you're suffering and they're not, because they can breathe without feeling guilty and hold a normal conversation without breaking down into tears of fit or rage.

6. You never know what you have until you lose it, and once you lose it, you can never get it back.

7. Depression is such a cruel punishment. Theres no fever, no rashes; no blood tests to send people scurrying in concern. Just the slow erosion of self, as insidious as cancer. An essentially solitary experience, a room in Hell with only your name on the door.

8. Maybe I know somewhere deep in my soul that love never lasts and we’ve got to find other ways to make it alone, or keep a straight face. I’ve always lived like this, keeping a comfortable distance. And up until now I’ve sworn to myself that I’m content with loneliness  because none of it was ever worth the risk.

9. That saying 'time heals everything' is complete utter crap. Time does not heal everything. Time does not fix your wounds or repair your broken heart. Time does not comfort you in any sort of way. Time doesn't know when you're hurting. It doesn't sing you to sleep or make you smile. Time...it's just there. It doesn't help you. You can't rely on time to heal you. You have to be strong enough to tell your self that you can get over this, that you will get over this.

10. How did I get here? How did I become "this girl?" I look in the mirror and I'm disgusted with what's staring me straight in the face. I need to make changes in my life, but I don't know where to start or what to do... How do you change your entire being, who you are, everything? Because that's what I want. To start over, a clean plate. But life doesn't work like this, I know I can't just snap my fingers and everything will go back to what it was. What it needs to be. What happened is in the past, and I have to stop letting it haunt me. I just have to. I pretend like I'm so strong, but in reality I'm trembling at the knees. I'm scared. I'm scared of my past, I'm scared of my present, and I'm terrified of my future. I'm terrified of what lies ahead of me.

11.he hardest thing to do in life is to pretend to be what you're not. Because pretending is hard. Lying to yourself every waking hour of everyday isn't easy. I know that I'm lucky and should be grateful for everything I have, what gets me are those things, those people who I have lost, who have left me, those whom life has pushed away from me. I pretend that they never mattered, that I couldn't be happier, but the truth is I feel so incomplete, so unhappy, so empty of any hope whatsoever. I hate myself. I hate what I've become. I hate that I can't just move on like any normal human being can.

12. I hide my pain like the rest of them, that's why I'm always laughing. I'm troubled, I'm brilliant and miserable too that's why I'm so funny. I swallow down all my fears with a bottle made of silver, I've only been here for 17 years but already, my life is over.

Chances to break down and cry, wherever I go. And you want me to be strong, any less just shows I'm weak. How'd you turn so cold where's the girl I used to know? And it seems you've disappeared, though you'r enot that far away. Please, tell me it's not true, I didn't mean that much to you.

[Everything Is You -Eli Young Band.]

Another empty promise, goo intentions from the start. You failed to mention our love would be this hard. I'm tired of talkin' don't have nothing left to say. Maybe sometime we'll sit through the ashes one day. I can't lean on you 'cause I'd fall right over, can't count on you, it doesn't add up. I see we're through and the truth is pretty sober, this is going nowhere, enough is enough. The hardest part, in my choice to leave, was not quite knowing what I'd achieve. But now I know, I can be stronger on my own. Thats what sleepless nights and only God have shown.

[Enough i Enough -Eli Young Band.]

I live the life now that we would daydream. My only wish, is you come enjoy it with me.

[Dear Old Nicki -Nicki Minaj.]

1. Take a look at your life, what have you become?

2. Remember when we were innocent, playing in my backyard? I sure can. We outgrew each other. but I want a love like that with the person I marry.

 I stumbled across your picture today, I could barely breathe.The moment stopped me cold, grabbed me liked a thief. I dilaed your nubmer but you wouldn't be there, I knew the whole time but it's still not fair. I just wanted to hear your voice, I just needed to hear your voice. I miss you so much Dad.

[Address In The Stars -Caitlin And Will.]

3. Where you used to be, there is a whole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime and falling into at night. I miss you like hell.

4. You were never supposed to mean this much to me; I was never supposed to fall so hard. But you know what? I did and thats the truth, thats what keeps me holding on because it hurts like hell letting you go.

5. Sometimes when I'm talking, my words can't keep up with my thoughts. I wonder why we think faster than we speak, probably so we can think twice.

6. 'You'll get over it...' It's the clichés that cause the trouble. To lose someone you love is to alter your life for ever. You don't get over it because 'it' is the person you loved. The pain stops, there are new people, but the gap never closes. How could it? The particularness of someone who mattered enough to grieve over is not erased by anyone but death. This hole in my heart is in the shape of you and no one else can fit. Why would I want them to?” 

7. A year, or ten years from now I won't remember why, I'll only remember that we were here and we loved each other like this.

8. Do you want me to tell you something really subversive? Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it. It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk anything, you risk even more.”

So, I was messing around with my mom saying I wanted to go to France for my birthday. And what do you know, my brother's mom takes him. On my birthday. (Me and him have the same Dad and different moms.]